See the world in my perspective.
I , a believer of Jesus and believes that whatever mistakes that have done in the past is already forgiven by the man who died from the cross. And that, I am capable of changing my ways and thoughts by His grace and mercy; thus, I deserve every happiness in the world because God loves me.
I have learned way too deep now about life. I was too fool and too shallow way back then, too selfish and immature.But, right now, I have a clearer perspective about life and its truth. That it is not perfect and not magical anyway, that God almighty will alway be the One Who is true and will forever be the definition of love. So, I surrender to His will. It is when we believe in Him and His plans, it is when we trust in His name, it is when we call Him often in every breath, there and there we could ever understand things and be more than satisfied. He will fill our emptiness with mercy and love, that no one could ever do or be. I cannot weigh nor measure the love of Jesus for me and the countless times He had forgiven me. I was able to see a clearer vision of life and reality because of my experiences and with the constant help of my blessings. Though life is not perfect and magical, it is still a wonderful life indeed. I am currently in so much bliss and floating with joy for everything that is going on around me. Each moment are gifts, bad or good , I still learn a heaps from it. I realized how important it is to choose happiness in every situation. To be positive always and just see the bigger picture. Life is always hard and it teaches us lots of lessons, including the techniques on how to deal our problems and circumstances easier as possible , most especially when we are closer to God.
I strongly believe, that I am no ones definition. I belong to myself, I know myself better. I need no validation from anyone. Because, what matters to me is the love of the people who have been there and never left.
I am no hypocrite, I know better that I am not perfect. In fact, I am dragging myself way too hard and heavy just to be a little nearer to the Lord. But I always fail Him. Nevertheless, I always see to it that I am more responsible now on my words and deeds. Undoubtedly, I am knowing myself better than before, since I have a love and hate relationship with myself. I know my limits and bad sides. I know what angers me, disappoints or make me feel really bad. Of course, I am learning to weigh things to be done as a good response to these stimulus. I can predict now my feelings and learning to manipulate my actions from my emotions. I choose to see the result rather than just go with what you want. I am little by little coaching my emotions to express how it should be. My point is, I am different person because I think before I act. That’s the power of WRITING. I am free. to say, do and express EVERYTHING. That’s why it is called CATHEEVEYTHING ♥ On the other hand, I also know my strengths. I know where I am good at, and for the record, I just figured it out. I am in a constant battle with self-pitying-syndrome. But with the help of my family and by the grace of God, I can now say I have conquered those lowest points of my life. I have built a stronger foundation of my own version, a kind of me that I am ought to be. But, I am not fully intact yet. I am still in the process, of searching the parts of me where I lost myself. and still learning. What I have today is the product of the past experiences that molded me. So, finally I could say that I am confident with myself. That what the other people will say about me and about my mistakes wont hurt me at all, wont affect me because, I KNOW MYSELF BETTER! As a matter of fact, everyone has a bad side. Everyone has their own dark secrets. People cannot judge other people by the opinions of others, unless they are GOD.
I’ve come to be mature but never perfect.
Today, all of my plans for my life are entrusted to the Lord.